i’m suicidal until
the moment i see myself
in outraspective.
i am lying facedown
on my bedspread,
feet hanging off
the edge,
bob dylan’s
“lay, lady, lay”
taking off the edge
sobriety
leaves behind.
i am avoiding reading
the remaining twenty-six
pages of human
growth and development’s
first assigned chapter
of my overpriced textbook—
fuck this shit, i’m a writer.
why am i not
an english major?
“because you’re excellent
at biology too,
but you’re too lazy to suffer
through
organic chemistry and
calculus,
so you’ll be stuck
with a nursing degree
just like your parents
before you.
A+ for role model
skills. C for effort in making strides
in disappointing your parents
(again).”
gee, thanks again,
conscience—
wish you’d lose your
rationale for once.
“ruled by reason,
poisoned by passion.”
You can do it!
I hear ya sister. Beautiful words. Passionate message.